Recurring dreams trying to tell me something .. (?!)
June 25, 2008
For as long as I can remember (well the past 5 years at least) I’ve had a recurring dream. It takes place in any of the educational institutions that have housed me. The basic one is that I am meant to be graduating from high school, but am failing terribly at English (a requirement to graduate) because I didn’t turn in some assignments, skipped class & didn’t do any homework.
I’m always really upset because I know I am good at English (it was one of my better subjects in school irl) but too apathetic to care until I know I am going to be held back. The dream usually ends with me knowing I screwed it up and can’t pass.
Last night I had a variation on the theme. I was in primary school and was in Year 7, I had missed half the school year due to being in America (funny that!) and everyone was preparing to announce the best student of the year. I was nominated but knew I had no chance, I felt very bitter towards the other classmates/nominees.
I know what this dream means, and I always have. I did well enough in my Tertiary Entrance Exam to get into any course I would have wanted. I chose Psychology, not having any clue what I wanted to do with my life at that point. Psychology kinda ruined me! I ended up dropping out after 2 years of deferring, not going to class, doing papers on the day after they were due and just being uninterested in the subject matter.
I know I could be doing more with myself, so much more. I know I could succeed at studying with high marks if I committed myself to something. I just haven’t.
I want to do exams! I want to prove my worth!
And my brain is trying to tell me that I need to take some course of action.
I’m just not sure what that course of action is..
June 25, 2008 at 8:39 pm
Psycology? That is like the fuckin coolest degree ever! Come back to uni, YOU CAN DO IT!
June 26, 2008 at 7:58 am
wow… i wonder if recurring dreams mean something too. i get them as well.
actually my dreams are weird. i can remember all of them to detail, and sometimes they continue. say i wake up in the middle of the night and go back to sleep, they’ll continue. they’ve continued on following nights too. it’s kinda weird. maybe we should both go visit dream readers!
June 26, 2008 at 8:13 am
Jeff Goldblum, it’s far too late for that!
Gilda! I think they do! I can usually pick the exact reason for my dream, I’m not really sure if I believe in them being like “YOU DREAM OF WATER MEANS YOU WILL HAVE MONEY PROBLEMS”. Because I can definitely always pick what they mean from the past few days of my life/things i’ve seen & done!
Heheee. Dream reader would be fun though. I might do something like that!
I can have continuous dreams like that too sometimes. It’s the worst when your’e having a great dream and can’t get back to it. Heeee! <3 dreams!
June 26, 2008 at 10:05 am
I feel the same way about uni right now I think. Everything the world tells us “out loud” warns against the attitude that we need exams and such to prove our worth, yet the real message we’re getting is quite the opposite. It’s so seductive. I don’t think I would believe I had any intelligence at all if I hadn’t gotten into law school, but then once you’ve proved yourself it seems like there’s almost nowhere left to go without finding a further exam or other shallow test of worth. I guess I’m waiting to find motivation other than wanting to prove my worth before I move forward with my education. I definitely want to be using my brain and learning, but the pressure to get back into it seems to be coming from all the wrong directions. Hopefully we will both find our way soon enough
June 26, 2008 at 7:22 pm
Oh felicity! Stop being so smart please! No never! Everything you’ve said is so true. I don’t know if I will ever find my self back at a University. I might do a short courses though! I wish you were back in Perth, even though I’m not there, because then I would know I could be coming home to hang out with you!
Alas 
xoxo